hey everyone(:
im having a pretty good day, apart from the fact that it's very hot, but whatever,
mikaela and i are friends now, she's actually sitting next to me in class right now, we are in home ecomonics, typing up a report on some bullsh*t lunch that we put on for the teachers and half of us weren't allowed in because the teacher said we were only allowed in if we wore black clothes, which i didnt have, but whatever :P
i spent my morning tea with jacob :P __macca kept pushing him onto me, ahaha, it was heaps fun ;)
lol, im freakin' obsessed with smiley faces, lol,
i have to sell candles in my next break, thats right CANDLES, uhm, wtf? lol, its pretty weird.
grr, mikaela is now mad at me because she read my old blog from when i was mad at her and it all going downhill. Mikaela, just because i know you'll be reading this later on, i just want you to know, it was a long time ago and we've through too much shit to let this stop us now, oh, btw, have you thought of a way to tell that chic that she needs a shower ? lol, loveyouforever, oceane.
nothing new to report really,
love&light;
oceane.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Sunday, March 28, 2010
why don't you just leave;
Don't Kanye me.
Or I'll Chris Brown you,
and Tiger Woods your mother;
do you get it ?
i had one of the best sleepovers in my life last night; we had alot of problems and we just laughed everything off, relaxed, prank called, you know, the usual sh*t, ahahah.
we walked for ages trying to get to mcdonalds and on our way and helen, summer and i were getting abused by the people driving by. They'd yell out sh*t like "you sl*ts" "f*** me" "go home" and they'd swerve all over the road trying to scare us / hit us ? :S
We called my sisters' boyfriend to come pick us up coz we were too pussy to walk back, lol, he is actually quite a d*ck :P he doesn't talk; all he said the whole drive was
" you could've said it was near 7 eleven " and " laters " ahaha, he needs to grow some social skills.
el-oh-el; i'm dating jacob;
he's so sweet, i like him alot; and im very defensive of our relationship, which can be good and bad, i guess, my close friends are being supportive, my other 'friends' are not, im a slut apparently ? whatever,
im on the phone to him right now
love&light,
oceane.
Or I'll Chris Brown you,
and Tiger Woods your mother;
do you get it ?
i had one of the best sleepovers in my life last night; we had alot of problems and we just laughed everything off, relaxed, prank called, you know, the usual sh*t, ahahah.
we walked for ages trying to get to mcdonalds and on our way and helen, summer and i were getting abused by the people driving by. They'd yell out sh*t like "you sl*ts" "f*** me" "go home" and they'd swerve all over the road trying to scare us / hit us ? :S
We called my sisters' boyfriend to come pick us up coz we were too pussy to walk back, lol, he is actually quite a d*ck :P he doesn't talk; all he said the whole drive was
" you could've said it was near 7 eleven " and " laters " ahaha, he needs to grow some social skills.
el-oh-el; i'm dating jacob;
he's so sweet, i like him alot; and im very defensive of our relationship, which can be good and bad, i guess, my close friends are being supportive, my other 'friends' are not, im a slut apparently ? whatever,
im on the phone to him right now
love&light,
oceane.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
they're my bestfriends;
why hello;
boys! gah, it's pretty hard. They say they like you, and when you don't like them, you find out a way to tell them, but things still get awkward, you know what I'm talking about ?
Jacob is amazing; he says he still likes me and only me, but i think he likes me+Helen. But I think of him like my bestfriend;
Ewww, I went to youth on Friday and hung out with tht Connor-guy. He's a f***ing creep! He claimed he was trying to get my phone out of my pocket; but somehow, he managed to touch nearly my whole body! Some advice girls, don't let guys touch/take advantage of you, it's just trashy, okay ?
I'm not up-myself; but I must admit, guys do like me but there's this one guy that I'm starting to like. HE DOESN'T LIKE ME! Hmm, is this normal ? I think this is tht thing were you want what you can't have; f***, f***, f***, I like him alot. We only started hanging out this year, but I've known him for like 5years. You know how I want to move schools? yeah, well he wants me to move to his school and hang out with him, and I'm like f***yess! The downside and the reason i can't ask him out is because of THE GIRLFRIEND! Grr, i dislike her and i haven't met her yet.
boys! gah, it's pretty hard. They say they like you, and when you don't like them, you find out a way to tell them, but things still get awkward, you know what I'm talking about ?
Jacob is amazing; he says he still likes me and only me, but i think he likes me+Helen. But I think of him like my bestfriend;
Ewww, I went to youth on Friday and hung out with tht Connor-guy. He's a f***ing creep! He claimed he was trying to get my phone out of my pocket; but somehow, he managed to touch nearly my whole body! Some advice girls, don't let guys touch/take advantage of you, it's just trashy, okay ?
I'm not up-myself; but I must admit, guys do like me but there's this one guy that I'm starting to like. HE DOESN'T LIKE ME! Hmm, is this normal ? I think this is tht thing were you want what you can't have; f***, f***, f***, I like him alot. We only started hanging out this year, but I've known him for like 5years. You know how I want to move schools? yeah, well he wants me to move to his school and hang out with him, and I'm like f***yess! The downside and the reason i can't ask him out is because of THE GIRLFRIEND! Grr, i dislike her and i haven't met her yet.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
you hate;
the whole thing,
look at my life from the outside, and you'll think i have nothing to complain about. You know what, you're probably right, my life is pretty good, but i'm still human, and i still have problems, not matter what it looks like from where you're standing.
Well, Cody and I broke up, and if you read my last blog, that's a good thing. I was talking to Helen and she said she doesn't really get into relationships anymore. She likes the guys but doesn't date them unless she thinks they'll last because otherwise what's the point? She's totally right, its just painful otherwise, and you know what i figured? i don't like anyone, i just have guys who are my bestfriends, and i'm okay with that.
The thing is with Cody, everytime I do something wrong, Britney's always waiting for it. She'll wait, then tell me something horrible about him, make me feel crap. It's all because he hate's her. I hate having to pretend I'm on both sides, when it's totally clear that I'm on Cody's side. Sorry Britney.
Mikaela's birthday party this weekend :S okay, I'm going to force myself to have fun at this party, is that possible ? Oh well, atleast mother isn't letting me sleep over. :)
just the part called 'your life'
i hate this; seriously. I'm so sick of my shitty little private school, with strict teachers, backstabbing friends, totally f***ed up makeup and hair rules etc. God, I give up, I don't give a sh*t, I will find a way to leave. Mother wont let me go to a public school, so it's very tempting to try and get expelled. It wouldn't be very hard. Tonite is when i'm going to tell her that she has three options; 1. send me to a state school; 2. Send me overseas for a year; 3. Send me to live with my father in Spain.
I just want to get away from it all; to start again. I know that won't be easy but it will be a million times better than staying here.
What would you do ?
love&light;
oceane.
look at my life from the outside, and you'll think i have nothing to complain about. You know what, you're probably right, my life is pretty good, but i'm still human, and i still have problems, not matter what it looks like from where you're standing.
Well, Cody and I broke up, and if you read my last blog, that's a good thing. I was talking to Helen and she said she doesn't really get into relationships anymore. She likes the guys but doesn't date them unless she thinks they'll last because otherwise what's the point? She's totally right, its just painful otherwise, and you know what i figured? i don't like anyone, i just have guys who are my bestfriends, and i'm okay with that.
The thing is with Cody, everytime I do something wrong, Britney's always waiting for it. She'll wait, then tell me something horrible about him, make me feel crap. It's all because he hate's her. I hate having to pretend I'm on both sides, when it's totally clear that I'm on Cody's side. Sorry Britney.
Mikaela's birthday party this weekend :S okay, I'm going to force myself to have fun at this party, is that possible ? Oh well, atleast mother isn't letting me sleep over. :)
just the part called 'your life'
i hate this; seriously. I'm so sick of my shitty little private school, with strict teachers, backstabbing friends, totally f***ed up makeup and hair rules etc. God, I give up, I don't give a sh*t, I will find a way to leave. Mother wont let me go to a public school, so it's very tempting to try and get expelled. It wouldn't be very hard. Tonite is when i'm going to tell her that she has three options; 1. send me to a state school; 2. Send me overseas for a year; 3. Send me to live with my father in Spain.
I just want to get away from it all; to start again. I know that won't be easy but it will be a million times better than staying here.
What would you do ?
love&light;
oceane.
Monday, March 08, 2010
what is it called when;
you are but your not.
Not lonely as though you're the only person in the world, it's different, it's as though people pay you attention but they don't really give a sh*t about who you are, where you come from or what's happened in your life; they just want to make sure your makeup is applied right and your hairs perfect before they hang out with you, so they don't look like losers.
I'm pretty sure we all feel like this at one point or another . . .
In this world, how am I supposed to figure out who my real friends are ? There is always going to be those people who know your name, who talk to you and ask how you're doing, but at the end of the day, do they really give a sh*t ?
Are these people your true friends ? If you were sick, would they call just to see how you're doing ? Would they come over just to let you know that they care ?
I only have two friends who would do that for me.
They're true friends. Friends i really respect.
Friends tht I would DIE for. ILOVEHELEN&JACOB <3
definately, maybe;
Jacob, wow, he'll probably think its disgusting, as we're besties (Y) but it think i may like him. God, he's bloody amazing, seriously, i love how he gets annoyed when us girls call ourselves fat or ugly. He's funny, smart, he respects everyone for who they are, he is rebellious, but not totally crazy, & yes, he still talks to me no matter what crazy sh*t i do.
But, woah, I'm stil dating Cody, god, I'm such a bitch, but i don't know how to tell him that i want to end things. Any ideas ?
Let me know: brokenheelsbrokenhearts@hotmail.com or leave a comment (:
love&light;
oceane.
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Not lonely as though you're the only person in the world, it's different, it's as though people pay you attention but they don't really give a sh*t about who you are, where you come from or what's happened in your life; they just want to make sure your makeup is applied right and your hairs perfect before they hang out with you, so they don't look like losers.
I'm pretty sure we all feel like this at one point or another . . .
In this world, how am I supposed to figure out who my real friends are ? There is always going to be those people who know your name, who talk to you and ask how you're doing, but at the end of the day, do they really give a sh*t ?
Are these people your true friends ? If you were sick, would they call just to see how you're doing ? Would they come over just to let you know that they care ?
I only have two friends who would do that for me.
They're true friends. Friends i really respect.
Friends tht I would DIE for. ILOVEHELEN&JACOB <3
definately, maybe;
Jacob, wow, he'll probably think its disgusting, as we're besties (Y) but it think i may like him. God, he's bloody amazing, seriously, i love how he gets annoyed when us girls call ourselves fat or ugly. He's funny, smart, he respects everyone for who they are, he is rebellious, but not totally crazy, & yes, he still talks to me no matter what crazy sh*t i do.
But, woah, I'm stil dating Cody, god, I'm such a bitch, but i don't know how to tell him that i want to end things. Any ideas ?
Let me know: brokenheelsbrokenhearts@hotmail.com or leave a comment (:
love&light;
oceane.
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Sunday, March 07, 2010
boys; friends; the month of march;
2010 new years' resolutions:
"1. to make best friends with guys, 2. to date guys, but not to date to many, just the one's that i really, really like, because otherwise, what's the point really ? 3. to make sure that i don't lose any friends because of boys, 4. to stop gossiping/lying/being mean to others, 5. to patch things up with mikaela, frenemy of 3years. wish me luck."
oceane, 1st january 2010, 12.01am.
boys; friends; the month of march;
Yeah, they're the species of human that us girls have wondered about for years.
Mixed messages; some girls are best friends with them, other girls go through a ton of boyfriends, while there is the small percentage of girls who prefer to stay out of the whole thing and to be completely honest, these girls don't get hurt by guys & they make great friends because you know that you wont lose them because of guy troubles.
Well, i think about every 1 in a 1000 girls are not sure which category they fit into, and yes, i am one of these girls. That's why I decided to be a little bit of everygirl this year, being honest though, I've done a friggen sh*t job so far.
Well, i've never really had a problem making friends, so this part was easy for me. Within the first 3weeks of school i had became preetty close friends with most guys in my grade and boys from other schools, i'm thinking, f***yess, this is going to be easy (:
I might as well warn you now, from here on, it's pretty downhill. Well, my closest girlfriends, Helen, Kaitlin, Melinda and I haven't exactly been nice to Mikaela lately. I know i said that I would try to patch things up with her this year, but I really, really dont want to anymoree. She owes me $300 for her ticket to all the summer music festivals she went to with me, she also owes Helen $250 for breaking her mac's screen :S yeahh, well, she says so much sh*t behind our backs, it makes us want to kill her, grrr,
I rock up to school, only to get sent straight to the vice principals office along with Helen, Kaitlin and Melinda only to find Mikaela waiting up there aswell. Eww, she had this look on her face that basically told me that i was gonna be in trouble for somesh*t i didnt do. F*** her. Hmm, well, the vice basically told us that we HAD to be nice to her & let her back in our "group" otherwise we would get f***ing SUSPENDED, what the f*** ?
I know you're thinking, 'why is oceane being such a b*tch? why doesn't she just be nice and let her in the group again?'
The thing is, i've been in Mikaela's situation, you know, where all you're friends suddenly turn against you and sh*t, so has Helen, so has Melinda, so has Kaitlin. God, it's like a part of life here. I know it's not a very 'secure' friendship, but thats what its like to be one of these pretty girls that you hate.
Well, my search for bff boys is turning pear-shaped. Uhuh, something got messed up, because my two closest new bff's, Jacob and Cody, have turned out to be the two coolest guys i've ever known, and, and, and, i think i may be starting to like them both, as more than friends :S is that even possible ? I think it might be, and you know what the other crazy thing is ? I think they might like me too,
OMG, i sign into MSN right? and this guy that goes to my youth, David, sends me this message saying: i broke up with my girlfriend because of you, i like you more than i've liked anyone beforee. OMFG, what do i do? i wouldn't ever date this guy, i know looks aren't everything and all that but SHOWERING is something; god, he smells like the boys' soccer teams' dirty socks+trainers :S but i also value his friendship and don't want to hurt his feelings;
Woahhh, big news, good news. Jacob likes me+Helen, so i guess i'm not the only one who likes two people at once ? yeah, well, us three went to the movies together, and even though there was three of us, we had so much fun! No one got left out, no one was the third wheel, it was so good;
more news; Cody likes me aswell (: f***yess, i'm on a roll;
Ok; cody+me and our other friend _macca went to the movies together. We saw percy jackson and the lightning theif; i've decided to be honest (see new years' reso. 4.) so i'm just going to say it. It wasn't nearly as fun as it was with Jacob+Helen, but i just said, whatever, we were probably just nervous, so it was awkward, also, his parents were two rows infront of us :S dude, you don't understand how weird that is, ahaha, but after the movies, we went to rhys' house an you will never guess who was there, it was MISS WORLD but i can't remember which year, LOL, she is soo pretty *jaw drops*
Well, i've got you upto date on my life, ahah, until about 4hours ago, when Cody asked me out! I said yes, but this is the bad bit; i don't think i really like him! I mean, he is a GREAT guy, so nice and everything, but i'm starting to like Jacob more now, they're both bloody amazing, but whatever, and i haven't told Cody this yet; :S
This is my first time posting so i'm probably pretty sh*t writer, aha,
got complaints, critisms, compliments, questions or advice ?
let me know by commenting anonymously,
emailing me: brokenheelsbrokenhearts@hotmail.com,
adding me on msn: brokenheelsbrokenhearts@hotmail.com,
love&light;
oceane.
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"1. to make best friends with guys, 2. to date guys, but not to date to many, just the one's that i really, really like, because otherwise, what's the point really ? 3. to make sure that i don't lose any friends because of boys, 4. to stop gossiping/lying/being mean to others, 5. to patch things up with mikaela, frenemy of 3years. wish me luck."
oceane, 1st january 2010, 12.01am.
boys; friends; the month of march;
Yeah, they're the species of human that us girls have wondered about for years.
Mixed messages; some girls are best friends with them, other girls go through a ton of boyfriends, while there is the small percentage of girls who prefer to stay out of the whole thing and to be completely honest, these girls don't get hurt by guys & they make great friends because you know that you wont lose them because of guy troubles.
Well, i think about every 1 in a 1000 girls are not sure which category they fit into, and yes, i am one of these girls. That's why I decided to be a little bit of everygirl this year, being honest though, I've done a friggen sh*t job so far.
Well, i've never really had a problem making friends, so this part was easy for me. Within the first 3weeks of school i had became preetty close friends with most guys in my grade and boys from other schools, i'm thinking, f***yess, this is going to be easy (:
I might as well warn you now, from here on, it's pretty downhill. Well, my closest girlfriends, Helen, Kaitlin, Melinda and I haven't exactly been nice to Mikaela lately. I know i said that I would try to patch things up with her this year, but I really, really dont want to anymoree. She owes me $300 for her ticket to all the summer music festivals she went to with me, she also owes Helen $250 for breaking her mac's screen :S yeahh, well, she says so much sh*t behind our backs, it makes us want to kill her, grrr,
I rock up to school, only to get sent straight to the vice principals office along with Helen, Kaitlin and Melinda only to find Mikaela waiting up there aswell. Eww, she had this look on her face that basically told me that i was gonna be in trouble for somesh*t i didnt do. F*** her. Hmm, well, the vice basically told us that we HAD to be nice to her & let her back in our "group" otherwise we would get f***ing SUSPENDED, what the f*** ?
I know you're thinking, 'why is oceane being such a b*tch? why doesn't she just be nice and let her in the group again?'
The thing is, i've been in Mikaela's situation, you know, where all you're friends suddenly turn against you and sh*t, so has Helen, so has Melinda, so has Kaitlin. God, it's like a part of life here. I know it's not a very 'secure' friendship, but thats what its like to be one of these pretty girls that you hate.
Well, my search for bff boys is turning pear-shaped. Uhuh, something got messed up, because my two closest new bff's, Jacob and Cody, have turned out to be the two coolest guys i've ever known, and, and, and, i think i may be starting to like them both, as more than friends :S is that even possible ? I think it might be, and you know what the other crazy thing is ? I think they might like me too,
OMG, i sign into MSN right? and this guy that goes to my youth, David, sends me this message saying: i broke up with my girlfriend because of you, i like you more than i've liked anyone beforee. OMFG, what do i do? i wouldn't ever date this guy, i know looks aren't everything and all that but SHOWERING is something; god, he smells like the boys' soccer teams' dirty socks+trainers :S but i also value his friendship and don't want to hurt his feelings;
Woahhh, big news, good news. Jacob likes me+Helen, so i guess i'm not the only one who likes two people at once ? yeah, well, us three went to the movies together, and even though there was three of us, we had so much fun! No one got left out, no one was the third wheel, it was so good;
more news; Cody likes me aswell (: f***yess, i'm on a roll;
Ok; cody+me and our other friend _macca went to the movies together. We saw percy jackson and the lightning theif; i've decided to be honest (see new years' reso. 4.) so i'm just going to say it. It wasn't nearly as fun as it was with Jacob+Helen, but i just said, whatever, we were probably just nervous, so it was awkward, also, his parents were two rows infront of us :S dude, you don't understand how weird that is, ahaha, but after the movies, we went to rhys' house an you will never guess who was there, it was MISS WORLD but i can't remember which year, LOL, she is soo pretty *jaw drops*
Well, i've got you upto date on my life, ahah, until about 4hours ago, when Cody asked me out! I said yes, but this is the bad bit; i don't think i really like him! I mean, he is a GREAT guy, so nice and everything, but i'm starting to like Jacob more now, they're both bloody amazing, but whatever, and i haven't told Cody this yet; :S
This is my first time posting so i'm probably pretty sh*t writer, aha,
got complaints, critisms, compliments, questions or advice ?
let me know by commenting anonymously,
emailing me: brokenheelsbrokenhearts@hotmail.com,
adding me on msn: brokenheelsbrokenhearts@hotmail.com,
love&light;
oceane.
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